"Life After You, What Your Death from Drugs Leaves Behind"

Below are the words of Linda Lajterman, a mother who suffered an unspeakable tragedy but is using her experience to make sure it never happens to anyone else. We've featured Ms. Lajterman's words on this blog before and we are pleased once again to have her back as guest writer for this week.

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On February 23, 2014, the happy, peaceful life I knew was over.  After breaking down the bedroom door of our youngest child, we found 19 year old Danny dead in the chair at his desk.  We were in shock, screaming, and clueless what to do.  Danny and I had coffee and a nice conversation together just hours earlier that morning. What happened to my son?  The police arrived and the investigation began.  We weren’t allowed in his room, but after pleading with the officers to give me information, they told us that drugs were found in his room.  Initially they were treating this as just another teen drug death, but some information was obtained and it quickly turned into a crime scene.  Local police and DEA officers were in and out of the house collecting evidence for hours.  As soon as they had enough information to report, they explained that Danny had used a drug sold to him by a drug dealer who mixed and cut drugs with a deadly substance.  We wouldn’t know what that substance was for weeks later.  That day, my family was hit with a triple whammy:   our beloved son was dead, we learned he was using drugs, and we found out the drug dealer was the father of three who lived in the next town over. 

Our family is intact and loving.  My husband and I have been married over 31 years. We have two older children who love and adored their younger brother. We spend every birthday, holiday and special occasion with our large, very close, extended family.  Danny had many friends, a girlfriend, goals, interests and hobbies.  There is no family history of addiction or alcoholism on either side. There were no obvious “risk factors” in Danny’s life that would lead us to believe he would go down the wrong path and get involved with dangerous drugs.  He had two parents and two older siblings watching over him and giving him speeches and warnings about the dangers of drugs.  Even with four of us watching him, he still managed to hide his drug use very well.  We will never know what really happened to our son because he is not here to tell us.  We pieced together what we could from the information offered by scared teenagers who shared only what they wanted. At this time, almost 10 months later, we are over the drugs and just focus on missing our Danny.  Our hearts are broken and our lives are changed forever. The trauma and shock of losing Danny has devastated all of us and we will never be the same.

Recognizing that if this could happen to us, it could easily happen to other families,  I posted a letter to parents on Facebook hoping to warn the local families who thought like us, “Drugs and my kid, never!”  I hoped to wake everyone up so this doesn’t happen to anyone else.   My family had no idea the U.S. and many parts of the world are in the midst of an opiate addiction problem of epidemic proportions until our son died.  Danny was the 8th young person to die from drugs in Bergen County and we were only 7 weeks into 2014.  The letter went viral and I received thousands of messages not only from parents in the U.S., but also from people in South Africa, Australia, and many countries in Europe and South America.

Many of the messages I received had one common theme, the shame and stigma of addiction caused many parents to deal with their child’s drug problem behind closed doors.  They felt they had no one to talk to, no one to share their pain.  So many messages I received included a heartfelt “Thank You” for opening up their eyes.  We learned the hard way that this could happen to anyone, even in the best environment with minimal to no risk factors for excessive drug use.  I just wish someone would have done that for me so I could have had a better chance of knowing what my son was doing before it was too late.

What I did learn about my son was that like most teens, Danny never thought anything bad would happen to him.  He thought he was in control and just partying.   Danny did not exhibit any signs that would be considered out of the ordinary for a 19 year old.  He was our usual funny son who greeted us with hugs and told us he loved us every single day.  Danny was not a back alley junkie; he was a stupid kid who still watched cartoons.  He made some very bad choices and paid the ultimate price for his naivety.  As naïve as he was, I will admit we were as well.  Trying to make sense of what happened to my son, I began to educate myself on what is going on with this epidemic of young people becoming addicted to drugs and dying.  I will also admit that I was not equipped to raise a teenager in this day.  I thought it was the same as when my two older children were teenagers.  I didn’t think I needed to know anything new as I had already been down this road twice!  Boy was I wrong!  The changes that occurred in just a few years are unimaginable. I’ve watched documentaries, read the stories of other families, and spoken to many teens as I tried to figure out how I missed my son’s drug use.  I realize now that I had no idea what to look for when you would never think your child would use drugs other than maybe experiment with weed, and you would never put drugs and your kid in the same sentence. 

As I continue to mourn my Danny, writing has become a therapeutic activity.  Although I am a registered nurse, I have no particular expertise in drug abuse, treatment or rehab facilities. What I do possess is very real expertise in what my son’s death from drugs has done to my family. I know our experience is shared in one form or another by every family I have spoken to, read about, and talked through online support groups. I do not want another loving family to feel this pain, and I don’t want another young person to struggle with addiction for the rest of his or her life.  I recognize that like my son, most kids start out experimenting with drugs thinking nothing bad will ever happen to them.  This mindset prompted me to write a book for teens hoping to reach even just a few to never start using drugs or stop experimenting before they become addicted. No one starts out wanting to become an addict, it can happen to anyone.  Young teens don’t want to die; they just want to fit in.  The world is different now and the drugs and drug dealers can be lethal.  

My book, “Life after You, What Your Death from Drugs Leaves Behind” (available on Amazon.com, Barnes and Noble.com and Kindle) is a cautionary tale meant to shock and hopefully deter young people from using drugs. I hope the message of my book will be used as a tool in the drug education and awareness programs.  The book is not about Danny, there are many kids just like my son who think this will never happen to them.  It is also not about any one type of drug. This can happen with any type of drug.  I will walk your teen through their death and what happens to the loved ones left behind.  It is too late to help my son, but it is not too late to help yours.  The target age for this book is age 13 and up.  The book is designed for teens as a quick and powerful read full of thought producing questions and statements.  Parents are encouraged to read this book first, then give it to their teens to read and re-read. 

My mission now is substance abuse prevention and the evilness of drug dealers.  The drug education offered in schools focus on the types of drugs out there and what they do.  DARE programs try to teach kids early.  However, in fifth grade, kids usually do not socialize without their parents.   The influence of peers now supersedes parental influence by the time most kids are in eighth grade. There needs to be cultural change where getting “wasted” is no longer cool.  That will be the challenge and it may take years to accomplish.  The tactics presently used in the drug education and awareness programs are obviously not working.  Things are getting worse instead of better. We need to end this epidemic and make the world a safer place for the next generation.

 

Linda Lajterman   

 

Here is what others have to say:

“Finally, someone has tried to take the bull by the horns and gone on the offensive against the addiction epidemic,” said David Ray, Co-Founder of Cross Keys Retreat.

Life After You” challenges the decision-making process of at-risk drug users by having them think and feel-out a myriad of emotional and factual consequences of death. Lajterman offers advice for those struggling with either their own or a friend’s drug use or abuse. The human spirit’s drive for compassion is captured in her plea -- let not another loved one die nor family suffer.  

Gregory G. Lomuti, Ph.D., Licensed Psychologist ,Alcohol/Drug Counseling Emeritus Status

 

Linda Lajterman has created an incredible cautionary tale that might just save another family a tragic loss to an overdose death. In the midst of this American epidemic where we are losing our loved ones in record numbers, this book is literally a message to the grave without having to lose your life to receive it. 

Michael Deleon, President

Steered Straight, Inc.

 

 Linda Lajteman's book is a mandatory read for all parents and for all school districts that are not too risk averse to use it.  Better to advise and admonish now, than to offer condolences.  We should never have to bury our children.

Law Enforcement executive

Los Angeles, California

 

A review from the Amazon website:

This book is truly inspirational. I am 19 years old and have struggled with addiction in the past and after reading this I have grasped how dangerous drugs are and what it can actually do to you and how much pain it can cause to your loved ones. After finishing the book I was compelled to call my own mother and tell her how much I love her as I know that I have caused her enough suffering in the past. It is not worth the risk of your own life to do these things. It has impacted my life and taught me to never go down that path again. The greatest part about the process to change your life is that you will find many other enjoyable things that life has to offer. Thank you Linda Lajterman for being such an amazing person and being able to offer help to others in need. This book has changed my life and it can potentially save your life or anyone else you know who is struggling with addiction.

Comments

Sharon Cimino
Posted 12/17/2014 11:42 PM

I feel for Linda Lajteman, for our family also lost a son on February 6th of this year just 2 weeks before Linda's son died, our son Paul died from a Heroin overdose. Paul also had a loving family that was proud of all that he accomplished in the 22 years that he lived. Heroin did not define my son by any means, he made a mistake while away at college, a mistake that ultimately would cost him his life. I have spoke to groups of young adults and have said, One time is one time to many!" One time is one time too many because it only takes one time to become addicted to your drug of choice (not just heroin). Our teens and young adults need to know this because once you try a drug it is already too late! We need to convince everyone through our tragic stories like Linda Lajteman's and mine Sharon Cimino's however painful they are to us, because we do not want this to happen to anyone else's child!! The pain of losing a child is like no other pain you could ever feel. I do not my son to have died in vain, he would want me to tell his story so we can work together to help save our children from this terrible epidemic.

Barbara (mom with drug addiction in her home)
Posted 12/19/2014 10:13 AM

After reading Linda Lajteman's story and life journey with drug addiction I feel her pain. Linda's book is realistic as we are facing an epidemic of drug overdoses and deaths. Families, users, and young children need to be educated. The warning flags are there! School educators, police enforcements, and public speakers who have first hand experience need to put this in action ASAP. Users in recovery can be very effective by reaching out to young adults at there level. Never say, "It will never be me." I have been struggling with drug addiction with my sons for several years. It's not easy but, I will not give up on them. Everyday I am on pins and needles not knowing what the day will bring. Rehabs, incarceration, half-way houses and STILL the drugs are an active part of their life. I recently lost my dear nephew (22) to a heroin drug overdose. We stand tall with Linda towards fighting to end this war of drugs. God bless all the families who have lost a child to drug addiction. Know that you are not alone. I pray for you and hope your higher power watches over you. Linda Lajteman I thank you for sharing your painful story. Together we stand with Linda's journey towards reaching out to the young children by educating them of the warnings and dangers of American’s drug epidemic.

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